Spin the Block

God is not afraid of your anger and your disappointment.

He cares for us deeply—even if you’re upset with him, he still loves, protects, and seeks closeness with you. Nothing can separate us from his love, not even our anger. The main message: don’t let anger keep you away; God wants you to come back to him, to 'spin the block.'

A few days ago, my husband and I were flying after our wedding. We are boarding the plane, and he has my dress in his hand and his tuxedo, and here I am just giddy and bouncing around with my “wifey” bag just beaming from ear to ear.

I got to the row, and there was this really nice lady, and she said, “Oh my God, I love your bag, did you just get married? I see the tux, I see the dress”,  and I said, “Yes”. And that was the start of an hour-long conversation.

She told me she had just visited her daughter and really enjoyed the DFW area. She was really excited to visit because this time she would finally meet her daughter's new beau, and she thinks he’s the one for her daughter and wants her to get married.

We talked for some time, and she asked me to show her photos. Our conversation covered many things about the DFW area, but eventually, we circled back to her daughter. She shared that the man in her daughter's life right now is truly a great person, and we discussed all his green flags. However, she admitted that her daughter still carries some hurt from a previous engagement. Even though her daughter recognizes the blessing in front of her, she remains a bit guarded and, if she’s honest, a little mad at God. I reassured her that it’s okay—God can handle those feelings, especially if her daughter truly has someone good in her life. My prayer is that she recognizes it before it’s too late, but the beauty of God is that he can handle our hearts and hurts, which brings me to ‘Spin the Block’.

Many of us carry disappointments, anger, or even resentment toward God because of outcomes we didn’t expect, things we wanted but didn’t receive, expectations that went unmet, or devastating situations we simply can’t understand. Sometimes, these experiences create distance between God and us. Out of self-preservation, we keep Him at arm’s length, questioning how a loving God could allow such pain or heartbreak. In our hurt, we may feel hopeless and distant, but I encourage you to lean into God—He is not afraid of your struggles or questions.

God can handle your anger and the deep disappointments you may carry and might not have shared with anyone else. Maybe you’re upset with God because someone you loved passed away, and that pain is overwhelming. Maybe you were abandoned and wonder, “Why did it have to be me?” Or perhaps someone hurt you deeply, and you ask, “Why did that have to happen?” We all have difficult questions, but remember, God is not afraid of them.

God created us for a purpose, and sometimes it’s hard to believe that because bad things happen to good people. You may be studying your word, believing you are past the disappointment, but when you close your Bible, you still feel empty, or you believe all the miracles happened for them but not for you. Our relationship with God isn’t predicated on how many scriptures we know and how well we go through the motions. No, we grow stronger in Christ Jesus through surrendering our hearts to him, the heaviness of it all. It’s why we’re sometimes unfazed by his goodness when we should be in constant worship because of who He is, but we can’t see it or appreciate it. There's a barricade around our hearts, and that’s what God wants to heal, but He can’t because of our self-preservation, which blocks us from the Master.

You don’t need to protect yourself from God; you need to run to him.

It’s easy to look at other people’s lives and believe everything is working out for them, but when will it happen for me? That sting of waiting feels weighty.

But I come to you today to tell you to spin the block on God, the beauty of the Lord and Savior Jesus Christ that we serve is that he is Almighty. He is faithful and true. He is the great I AM, and nothing is too hard for him or surprises Him… He is God.

Consider the miracles in the Bible. We always praise when we hear that God remembered Rachel and her womb, but can you imagine how many prayers Rachel prayed between the time she wanted a baby and the time she had one? The disappointment, the looming feeling of “it's going to happen, but when God?” Genesis 30:1 says Rachel envied her sister. Hope wasn’t always there. Do you think that fazed God? Her feelings, impatience, and worries did not faze the Lord.

In Psalm 22:1, the writer opens up and says, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, from the words of my groaning?” It’s a beautiful Psalm, because it’s raw and intentionally placed to show us that God is not afraid of our feelings and despair.

The Lord is gracious, even when we turn from him. He still listens and saves. Consider the Children of Israel who turned from God many times, and God’s anger burned against them, but when they cried out to Him, He saved them. That’s love.

I’m not telling you to take God’s grace and mercy for granted. But I am challenging you: how much longer will you carry this weight when you don’t have to? How much longer will you blame God and miss what He has for you? Ask yourself why you’re still holding onto a burden that Jesus told you to lay down. Often, it’s because of fear, a need for control, or a lack of fully grasping how deeply Jesus loves us. Remember, His strength is perfected in our weakness. Lay it down at his feet.

Vulnerabilities in the hands of the Father turn into healing, freedom, and power.

When you hold onto anger, disappointment , and unbelief for so long, it becomes an idol to you, and you don’t even know it. You don’t know that the disappointment that you think you are wagging over God‘s head has created this imbalance in your relationship with him, but it has, and it has become an idol because you have worshiped that more than you have worshiped God in truth and in spirit.

I am not downplaying the hurt, weariness, or heaviness we all carry. It’s valid.

I have flat-out told God, "I am angry about this." “Why did you let this happen”? “Lord, I have had enough,” and not ten years ago either did I say this, I’ve asked this recently. So I know.

But there’s a delicate balance: “yes, woe is me,” but also “Lord if you don’t do another thing in my life I am still grateful and indebted to you- I owe you my life.” Two things can be true. Don’t forget your worship in the midst of your worry.

Because if you look back over your life and think things over… even on your worst days, GOD was there protecting, shielding, providing.

Revelations 3:16 “ So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth.”

Distance causes us to be lukewarm in our faith. Because there’s something in between our Creator and us. It almost makes Jesus’s death meaningless because he came so that the veil could be torn and so that there's nothing that stands between The Father and us.

Distances says, “Lord, I believe you for some things, but I don’t believe you fully for other things.” It says, “What happened to me is greater than what you promised.” And that is no way to live.

He is either God of all or God of nothing. If you trust Him, trust Him completely—trust His character, His faithfulness, and His unwavering love. Remember, He sent His Son to die for us. Spin the block on God: go back, get under His authority, and pour out your true feelings and your heart. He can carry it all, and you’ll be amazed at what He does in your life. I’m not saying everything will be perfect, but He will be with you through it all.

After you confess your heart to the Lord, I’m not saying things will turn around quickly, but they can if that’s in his plan. But what I do know is you won’t have to carry that weight anymore. A few weeks ago at my gym, we did a workout and worship session, and towards the end, one of the exercises was to carry a dumbbell or kettlebells for 400 meters. My trainer had in mind that it looked like all of us were God soldiers marching, putting on our full armor, and I saw that, but as we got halfway there, and some stopped because the weight was too heavy, all I could feel was gratitude because when the weight is heavy, I could give it to God. It was a metaphor of if I had to carry this weight alone, how many times I would have stopped permanently,  but the beauty of life is we don’t have to carry this weight alone.

The journey with God is not all on him; scripture illustrates this time and time again. In Revelation 3:20, Jesus says he stands at the door and knocks; if we hear his voice and open the door, he will come in and be with us. I get chills when I read this verse because He is sovereign. He could just come in, but he doesn’t. He stands at the door and knocks, indicating that we have a part to play. Our journey with God is a two-way street. We have to have a willing, open, and obedient heart.

He’s not gonna force a relationship on us, but he'll never leave us. He will not pry your hurt out of your hands; you must trust in who He is and surrender it. Time and time again, in the Word, it says, "So and so did this, and then God moved.”  That’s action. God is going to move, but you must move also. Even if it’s a silent, whispered prayer that says, “Lord, I need you,” He will show up. That’s faith, that’s surrendering, that's the first step to healing.

Don’t let past hurt, hang-ups, or disappointments make you give up on God. Spin the block, forgive Him like He forgives you (Psalm 103:12). Let Him show you how He’s never left you, even when you were mad at him and didn't understand.

My challenge to you today is to either get on your knees before God and confess your heart to Him or write it out. I’m a huge advocate for journaling, and this is also prayer. Write it out, address it to God, and at the end, make sure you give him glory, because I guarantee you that, while you were disappointed in him, you will find that he still loves you, and it’ll turn into gratitude. And gratitude turns into worship, and the worship will turn into healing, and that healing will turn into freedom, and that freedom in Christ will turn into a fulfilling walk with God, not a perfect one, but a fulfilling one.

Do it.

Spin the block on God.